Prophecy to the dry bones

Hi there,

Blogging time. I so wanna drink teh terik now. So random cravings. Anyway i am here to blog abit hard to concentrate cos talkin to Clone abt M. yah Not me. its M. haha. and I am supposed to tell edda abt my baptsim.

Ok cut the long story short. I prophecy today!. Yes. Prophesy! I pray for someone in cell group which i din even see her before speak to her before definitely i dunno her. But i was telling God .. GOd i dunno wad to pray for her man. but i step out in faith n pray and yah i just pray. Later Rach pray for me.

She told me GOd wants to talk to me about strength. That i do not lean upon my own strength but strength of GOd. He has a great plan for me to prosper in things but I just need to rely on him wholeheartedly. I think it is for me. Cos during praise and worship, Holy Spirit told me. Not to focus on the blessings although I thank GOd for it but rather on the blesser which is GOd.

Today he made me speechless again. GOd u win. As Rach was praying for me I was praying in tongues. and He impresses on me this verse for Kayla. He did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of faith, love, hope and of a sound mind. And i begin to encourage her dun let fear get a hold of her be it in her past or future challenges. and blah blah blah.. and when i finish i saw her crying. I wonder wad happen. Later after cell, she begin to share with me so much tat she din even share to anyone except her doctor. And not even her family n bf noes abt it. I know GOd was using me as vessel to help her. Yah i Pray for her, encourage her and teach her how to go about her walk with God and even her own personal life. COOL LA! I was very happy after tat cell grp meeting. U ROCK!

Ok stupid weather. so hot. Opps i think I am hot!. COol La!.
ok gonna add some application to my blog now.
TTFN - Tata for now!

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Haven been able to blog abt my genting trip. Erm.. I wont go thru the motion by tell u what i did. but rather something tat reflected in my mind when I played the free fall game.

It started off me Q-ing for the ride. However, I was not feeling well as I wanna puke after all the rides, I ate ice-cream. Its because of the milk tat makes me wanna puke. But whatever it is. I came all the way dere so just take it, the most puke lor.

Yah sat with jaslyn. The ride went up. And I commented, " Can I change my mind about this. I wanna go down and I dun wanna play any more." The moment i said tat i realised i was at the top already. So Good GOdess. Weee.... I fall down.. my heart dropped but thrill was the word. I wun mind taking again. although sweaty palms will be.

And after tat I realised. Many a times, we will tell ourselves, aiyah heck la. just do it. den any the end we realised we wana turn back but we cant just have to continue even though its scary and you could be all alone. Facing your fears, ur enemies or even death. So fight the good fight of faith. Ok I know randomness.

I watch chocolate on the bus back. She is good at fighting man. COOL LA!.

OK. I told clone abt mlm thing. mm.. i need to consider and reconsider. I think i will consult winson first. He was into this last time. and the other time at kota tinggi he advise me alot of things and maybe I shld my other daddy aka mentor, michael. and perhaps lastly my dad. cos i already expected wad my dad gonna say. Maybe he will pour cold water. I know clone dun realli agree to a certain extend. haha anyway. I will update about tat soon.

Yeah. Crazy clone. today so high on M&Ms. haha. ok la. He help me contacted WQ for vocal class. I wanna sing! I lost touch. so I shall start with vocals first den i will proceed to dancing. justin timberlake. woohoo.. This time i will try mtv dance. yeah.

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and yah. so far tats it. No much of deep thoughts cos there werent much of it.

Ciao. God Open the door that is for me and shut every door tat is not for me. HUGs =D

Meow!.

Shackoutdayz

I am tired. I think I gonna have headache dunno why. I am like damn shack out. I can doze off while typing. Period days makes me so tired. Just had prayer conference. I dunno why now my heart is feeling heavy. Pimple breakout due to periods too.

This is time best time. Cos i simply cant think. waiting for the damn file to open who on earth save tiff file in 1.7G. Madness. Its hanging my comp I took 3 hrs to dl and really long to even extract the files.

Genting time will be a time of solitude. I can go in a grp but I will feel that I will be in my own shell reading my own books. It would be great if Genting got clubs. But I doubt so. I din club with Fabian today la. I told him to jio me next month. Bo liew already la! Still got genting. I need to really eat grass liao. I think next month I gonna drag my clone for chiong man to celebrate his bday. But I dun think he will get drunk. more like i think I am the one. Cos i think that fabian sure get me down. Or maybe I should bring him to wala wala or timber. haha see how la. go maybe gotham penthouse I think he will like tat. There are hot guys which i will be so turn off. yeee....

I dun like the feeling of getting drunk. Cos the puking sucks. the sleepiness sucks
and the hangover sucks Roar!
But I love the music. Oh. I miss the shots at O bar. mmm...
Please don't stop the music..!!! haha. Ok self - high here.. But only certain people I like to go.
Frankly speaking I dun realli like to go with my gfs sometimes cos its not tat i dun like but sometimes wanan really play but still got to be abit more sober cos to ensure things are ok. But yah.

What the... I love mambo n rnb. but i think now i beginning to live rnb more. trance was never in my dictionary. depends I haven been like Jul so see how. aiyah tired liao.

Ciao

像我这样的 - Sun Ho

像我这样的
你会不会　来爱我
像我这样的　
不够完美 洒脱
我为爱前进
梦想路程却满是伤痕　不愿退缩
Take a look at me 我不松开手　
在失意的时候　用音符唱着我的　
美丽哀愁
Take a look at me 吶喊的心头
彷佛再说　黑白对错
微笑面对我的生活

曾经有过 为梦想失去选择
也曾走过 不被祝福 热烈伤痕到
现在我还是我　为爱的执着
Take a look at me 我不松开手
在失意的时候 用音符 唱着我的
美丽哀愁
Take a look at me 吶喊的心头
彷佛再说 黑白对错
微笑 面对我的生活
对我来说 简单生活
会是我想要的　结果

It means of darkness where you find no reason to love. Not just bgr but love in every aspect, family. friends, people whom u cant love.

Sun love people therefore she went out to the entertainment industry, to be the salt and light of the earth.
But still a prophet is always hated by his/her own people.

Jiayou. To sun. and to the people out there. =D
The greatest is love.

Do not abide in darkness

Talked to J this morning over msn. He told me somethings. But well, before even he tells me I already knew what was going thru him at this current state. This is a hard ground that needed help to change the condition of the soil to be able to grow new seeds again. Weather will always be an external factors in our lives that we are unable to expect and control. But intensive care is need to ensure the soil is plough, the seed is being watered and taken care of so that tree may emerge from here. REVIVE and REVITALISED.



I dun blame him for feeling and thinking and reactioning this way. Its perfectly normal reacting to such a life in a broken down word. What is meant for Good, has been abused. But the good news is God can change what is meant for evil to be good.



We are all humas after all. One life to live. Only way.. to live it well but how to live it well.. or rather How u define what is well? This is very subjective.



Partying all night, getting yourself drunk and making out with someone?

Travelling and have fun?

Getting a good career and have a family?

Being a millionaire?

Have great friends to chill out, hang out or stay over?

Being a superstar in the area of sports / entertainment etc?

Get that damn great guy or gal?



What is LIFE?


Life is a cycle of your actions. The only way to stop all the bad things from happening is to make a decision to stop the wrong things you been doing. But often the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. I agree totally.


Which I mention in my last blog:
Your Belief System + Your Values = Conceive as thinking/ thought patterns = Determine your actions = Define your reality/ destiny and in between the linking factor = emotions takes place.



and every one is doing everything and anything just for one thing :

So much for " MY HAPPY ENDING by Avril Lavigne. "

Everyone does this because they want to be happy but sometimes we are silly to do things that actually makes us more unhappy because of the spirit of deception is around.

WE were deceived to believe that certain things is or are good for us. Things that looks pleasureable, things that looks glamourous or may a times when we reach there we realised its not that great after all.

I am one of the victim I must say. I aint perfect but carrying onto perfection.
Friends, I urge u to not be weary in doing good but in due season you will reap a great harvest.

Anyway, to sum it all: His reply was:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall DIRECT your path straight.
Proverbs 3: 5-6

I am come a light into the world, that whoseoever believe on me shall not abide in darkness. John 12:46

This was what I saw, a confirmation from him.

Anyway, yest I finally gotten myself registered for MIS. Hopefully will be accepted and I pray hard that NTUC will fund me for it. Johoveh Jireh your my provider.

That all for now. ciaos.

Train of thoughts ...

Hi, I am back.
It's office hours now. Well, I completed my stuff. Waiting for samantha to get back to me than I can seek boss approval to go ahead with the prints. Anyway to continue on how God blessed me back. He provided me this freelance job which was the amount I gave for building fund and on top of that he provided me with continuous assignments from this company. =D

Going to genting this friday to sunday. I hope and wish to really enjoy myself. Oh yes. I'll be going to MIS later.
So I hope everything goes smoothly for me too.

I have alot to blog about. About myself. About the things that happen. I believe God was dealing with me in the area of my emotions. Something happen last week and causes some "stuff" to happen. I would not want to explain so explicitly over here. However, the truth finally sank in. J took a step back after things happen. Two hands to clap but whatever was done, I knew that God was moulding and showing me that I have really got to wake up to my senses. It wasnt the emotional attachement that overwhelmed me. It I felt that I was losing a friend but more about the self - reproach that was going through within me. Emotions flactuates up and down inside of me. And I was wondering why J just can ignore about it. ( That reminds me of when I saw this book at attributes, it says something that woman need to know about man and Man see sex as different thing from woman.) Cool book.

Anyway, back to the story. yah I was reproaching myself. And Now GOd was really dealing with me. He gave me a revelation about myself and things that happen in my 23 years of living.

Qtns such as : Why I do what I do? or Why they do what they do.

Where do all these started? Does man really view things differently from woman? Does J even really know what I am feeling? At that moment I doubt that cos if he knew I would not have felt that way. It just makes me feel that guys are just irresponsible. Well, I am that kind of person You need to speak right into my heart even I have a problem. But I know Jerri is like me. Even without him telling me anything. Because I studied him. His actions, his language, his words, his family, his mindset.

God, he needs to have a vision, a dream from you for his life. You fill him with your everlasting love. Teach him how to love when others are not loveable. Teach him how to forgive and let go the things when people let him down and God also for good relationship in the family.

We ( I classified as we because we both wish for the same thing) We long to have our own family, have a wife/husband and have kids and form our so called "love nest". But the truth is many people do not understand is Whatever you left with your " old "family will be brought over to your own " new" family. That's why the phrase - Like father like son, or like mother like daughter came about. The truth we always seem to think that we wont be like our parents and stuff but high chances is we tend to be like them cause that how they brought us up. Whether we like it or not thats the truth.

Another thing is J cant love a person. Simply because he is closed up. Love = freedom. I know no matter what, even he can claim he love someone but I know in his heart is not fully cause He is too hurt, too tired and fears ecludes him. Hey bro, dun be silly k.

I went kota tinggi with lots of questions at the back of my mind. But I decided to go and have fun. Erm, Yah to certain extend I have some amount of fun. I had great time with Winson cause during this trip i get to know him better. That's the whole point I go for this trip is to bond with my colleagues. And yah, I got closer to rennie and elton too. Cool la.

During dinner, I let winson read my palm.. Forgot how we derived to there. But he say I am a very complicated person and I think too much. Bingo Man. That was the qtn I ask Jimmy on Fri nite. I ask him Am I thinking too much? I think I think too much. But its so uncontrollable. So He actually told me I might migrate out of Singapore. So weird. haha. Anyway, he din say much cause he say that I am too complicated to see. haha.

Anyway, yah Kota Tinggi firelies I sat with him in the boat. He is like a little kid. So cute. ( check out my facebook for photos man) He wanted to catch the fireflies den i was like holding his jacket in case he fall over the boat. haha. But elton caught it. 3 Cheers for you man!

In the bus, he was sharing with me alot of things. which is similar to what i learn during bible study last wed.

Your Belief System + Your Values = Conceive as thinking/ thought patterns = Determine your actions = Define your reality/ destiny and in between the linking factor? I realised emotions takes place.

Well, sunday service I bought Joyce Meyer book at attributes. " Managing Your Emotions" - She is a great female author and of faith and definitely a woman of God. I love her books. Knowledge is Power and I really dont to be where I am now. I hope I can break through this. God help me!!

I will blog more about what I learn from the book next time round. And I hope with what I have I wanna help my friends, people around me.

And lastly, Jerri, if you read this. I love you. Hugs. =D ( Don't anyhow think)

the welcome note

Apart from him, I can do nothing. Yes. I agree. I render powerless without the Holy Spirit.
I believe God was setting me up.

Opportunities are everywhere.. what is a good opportunity and what is a GOD-opportunity?
Seizing the opportunites in season.

Time after time, he has never failed to show me. I would say slow and steady even though my heart's was a little impatient sometimes.

Entrepreneurship class was a stepping stone for me. Michael Song, Boss of V.hive, was the facilitator aka my mentor. He is a humble man. He is like a Big daddy to me. He is old enuff to be my dad. Sharing his great life experiences also accompanied by spiritual truths has taught me grounds to take note in a business.

What deeply impacted me was Mich prohecy over me.
He prayed a mass prayer and individual prayer. I was the second that he prayed for. GOd gave him a word.
" He said that I do not have the spirit of fear but love, of faith, of hope and of a sound mind."
Be commited and steadfast in the Lord. I will rise up to be like J ( one of the female successor ).
Go forth in faith - vividly its like this.

Next, He places great people in my life such as MY CLONE, LEONARD, JEREMY, MEI YEE, to inspire me and bring me to another level of thinking and revelation.

Building fund period, super low in cash. Was convicted by the Holy spirit in one the cell meetings to fulfill my building fund. Seems like alot. well, the next day during service, I ask God.

Me: If I don't fulfill my building fund am i going to be cursed and not get any blessings from you?
God: No. I was not looking at how much you give or whether you fulfilled but rather your
atttitude of Giving.

Wow man. I was blowed away by such an answer. If GOd really speaks You gotta realli obey.
I was very lost that day indeed - abt my calling / my destiny / ideation of biz / because i want something to be of a substance. During service, I ask GOd to reveal and speak to me.
He was so evident that day, i felt like I was talking to a person. He was speaking through me in a still small voice, through pastor kong msg and visions and dreams. Immediately, I was enlighten.
He begin to remind me of the vision that He gave me during the first building fund. I was overjoyed. It left like a release in the spirit. He begain to fill me with ideas and concepts.

What? / Where? / When? / Why? / How? filled me.

Anyway, in faith the week after, I gave the building fund in faith , praying that GOd will provide.
Discouragement came from my mum but still I know in my heart when God speaks, I just need to do it. By faith I gave my tithe and building fund.

Guess What Happen Next?

Stay Tuned.

Sign off.
Fay