An early tuesday morning

Hi Today is tues and I am early, because I went for prayer meetin. I pluck myself out of bed. haha.

Well, talk to mu tou yest nite. He was so not himself. in fact he was like ARGH.. yah. so not himself. I know he was breakin apart. The way he talk n reacted. And yah. i guess he wants to be left alone for now. and i guess i shld. In fact i was upset yest. cos wadever he spoke of has thorns in his words and i guess, a person who is hurt will tend to hurt others. contagious i guess. and now he has to cope with studies and work. but his piority is his family.

2 results. either he will want to spend more time with his family or maybe he is too fed up dat he wanna run away.

Today, soemthing spoke to me while i was on the way to singpost. Let him learn and grow himself. I guess to a certain extend. I guess I gotta let him rest.

Many thoughts came to me this morning unknowingly. but at such I seem to remember.

But i noe when i was praying for mu tou n family it was the spirit praying cos out of the belly came utterance. My heart was heavy. But i know God hears. He begin to impart faith into me.

I dunno. suddenly yest. I felt mu tou was at the brim. or almost. sigh. i felt helpless seriously.

Today i begin to realised something when i begin to step into heart of God church. All humans are weak and all will fall. but i realised something special abt people who has GOd in their lives. they pick up fast. 7 times you will fall but 7 times stronger you will come up. thats wad bible says.

haiz i realised something, " sorry seems to be the hardest word" for mu tou. I realised he never says dem. and I am hurt by wad he says. I mean he wanna hurt me hurt all the way lor. say like dun be his friend and from his heart he says that I let people make use of. :( like wth! I mean if you wnana say den say it all. haiz. some times i feel like crackin his head. n take out his rubbish.

I just spoke to glenn cos he is a runner. I ask him abt mu tou's pa condition. Now i noe the seriousness of it. N i cant blame him for reactin tat way. I understood the consequences of the situation. God, bring every disappointment to a new appointment!

I begin to understand. Everything was done so that you would come.