The so WHat daes!

i have so many things to blog. but recently i am so tired to blog abt my thoughts too.
I guess i just do a quick update. I am veri tired. I dunno why.
Feel as if i am fading away. A body without substance. Where is my capacity and tenacity?
Do hardwork get paid off? I am overwhelm by my thoughts. mm.. recently, mu tou n me got better. but many areas still haven realli got better. am i distracted by too many things? being muilti -foci. I wanna let go everything. as in everything. Mu tou ask me join him. I did wanted to. But for me when i am not 100% sure, i rather not move, because i remember yah lan told me tat before. because, the other day i woke up in the morning, n something came to me. Can i not do things according to my own feelings. Cause feelings may not always be rite and it can be something dangerous to rely on.

I begin to think. So wad i can get alot of money from mu tou's company? So what i can have alot of pple under me? so wad I can be very good in design? so wad i can be veri good in marketing TDF? so wad i excel in my career? so what? so what i can sing well? so wad i can perform? so wad pple admire me in terms of my talents n abilities? so what? so what i can analyse and see pple? so what i can study hard and do well in my studies? so what?

Maybe i shld let go of my job?
Maybe i shld let go of my studies?
Maybe i shld let go of cg n service?
maybe i shld let go of myself.

I just want to go to no man's land with mu tou and have fun. even the no man's land is malaysia. I am happy.

Aww.. Zzzzz.. in my dreams.