stop and stare, i think i'm moving but i go no where

now i am here blogging. i concluded brain dead. fading away into the wallpaper. lost with the wind. I lost myself, I lost all.

Conclusion, withering.

I am tired. Very. not just physically, mentally n emotionally. Perhaps I shall run away.
Today I had a veri weird thought and i guess i had enough. I gonna tell amos soemthing not veri pleasant. i just sms him. i guess i not gonna beat round the bush but tell him directly.

Everyone thinks things are going fine and good, but the truth is it aint not. I am tired of keep on keeping on. If the thing i can do now i would want to say.. I AM SICK OF EVERYTHING !

Some updates abt mu tou.
Recently, Maybe its too demanding of him to come see me.

Mu tou's concern abt me joining him. the truth is i not moving cos my mind is blank veri blank. If i already feel so chaos inside me den where can i even want to think further.

STOP AND STARE, I THINK I'M MOVING BUT I GO NO WHERE.

JUST WALK AWAY.

currently i am suffering from a splitting headache. and i have made a decision to walk away.

bye amos.

i guess i lost my mind. I am unsound. mad. insane. lost. just like emily the strange. tats why i am acting strangly. bye everyone. my life ends here.